Yesterday morning I noticed the bumpers in Jamie's crib were all awry.
Obviously he had been up to something the night before.
He had already ripped one of the ties off awhile back, so I figured it was time to take them off before anymore damage was done.
They have to last at least one more baby after all.
So when I got home from work I untied all the ribbons and off it came.
Just like that.
The crib looked so empty and bare.
It was just one more sign my baby was no longer a baby.
Even the hubs commented when he got home that it looked weird.
So I casually mentioned {maybe} we should start thinking about turning it into a toddler bed.
Figuring he'd laugh at me and say "No way! We're containing the beast as long as we can!!"
But that's not what he said. He was all casual about it and like "How about right now?"
And before I could even comprehend what was going on, this was happening.
I had a mini panic attack.
OMG it's a Wednesday.
We have to work tomorrow.
What if this doesn't go well.
What if Jamie's not ready.
What if I AM not ready.
I haven't had time to stew and stress over this for weeks, preparing myself.
But we did it. Ripped it off quick like a bandaid.
Jamie thought is "new" bed was the bees knees.
Jumping up and down.
Climbing in and out.
I just KNEW it was going to be a loooong, disaster of night.
But it wasn't.
When bedtime rolled around we followed the usual routine.
He ran into the nursery his big boy room, blankie trailing behind him, proclaiming he was tired.
So I sat in the rocking chair like I've done every.single.night for two years expecting to complete our bedtime ritual with some snuggles and goodnight songs, but he said "No mama, I tired. I lay down."
And just like that he didn't need me anymore.
He climbed right up into bed an put his head down.
We played our night night songs and halfway through he kept saying "Goodnight" as if we were disturbing him.
So we all said our goodnights and shut the door.
He talked in his bed for a bit then I didn't hear a peep.
So I peaked in and there he was, sound asleep, where he staying until this morning.
No drama. No crying. No constant climbing out of bed.
I've said it before and I will say it again.
Sometimes I don't think we give our kids enough credit.
We anticipate the worst, when really it's US that have a harder time letting go.
Letting go of one of the few baby things left before fully resigning to the fact that I have a big boy.
Did I mention he also peed on the potty a few days ago?!
I can feel the lump in my throat and the tears in my eyes already.
Before I know it we'll be dropping him off at college.