Wednesday, January 18, 2012

No day like today

I've seen a few people talking about their one word for 2012.
I didn't even have to think twice before I immediately knew what mine was.
Me.
That probably sounds kind of selfish to some, but to be a better mom, a better wife, a better friend....I have to be a better "me" first.
So on Saturday I finally took the first step.
I attended my first Weight Watchers meeting.
I know myself and something that was online only wasn't going to work for me.
I need that accountability.  That motivation.  And I can't think of a better way to achieve success, than knowing once a week I have to step my fat ass on a scale in front of someone else.
I was tempted to take the "fast and easy" route like I'd done in the past.
Some extreme diet where you practically starve yourself or cut out entire food groups just to get results.
Well I've been there done that.  And while they work in the short term, they obviously don't last.
Otherwise I wouldn't be sitting here, weighing the most I've ever weighed, not counting pregnancy.
I'm tired all the time.  I get winded going up a few flights of stairs.  And I just feel gross.
It's time to make a permanent change, even if it means slower results.
I don't want to go on a "diet."  I want to fix the unhealthy relationship I have with food.
I eat with I'm bored.  Sad.  Angry.  Happy.  Depressed.
Food is pretty much my answer to everything and I don't want to teach those habits to my child(ren).
I also don't want to be overweight and pregnant again.
Some people might not understand why anyone would want to work hard to lose weight, only to turn around and get pregnant....but I'd rather not carry around unnecessary pounds for another year or so to then just add on top of it.  It's just not healthy.
So here goes nothing!
One step closer to a new {healthier} me and it feels great.
I'm actually excited about this and finally have the spark that's been missing for so long.
Just a few days in and I already have more energy.
I feel satisfied after I eat instead of being so full I almost feel sick.
And it's amazing once you start paying attention to what you eat, how much you realize you were overindulging before.  It's a wonder I didn't weigh 300 pounds!
I have a long road ahead of me, but I hope at the end it's the last time I have to take this journey!


15 comments:

jv726 said...

You'll do awesome :) I love WW! I have lost 65ish lbs (with about 20 to go) while doing WW and while it is slow going, it is totally worth it!
And doing something for yourself is definitely not selfish!
Good luck! :)

Melissa said...

I've heard nothing but great things about Weight Watchers! I think it's wonderful that you're doing this for yourself and your family. I actually planned on joining Weight Watchers if I had a hard time losing the baby weight too, but I got very lucky this time around.

It makes a lot of sense to lose weight before getting pregnant. Being overweight poses some risks with a pregnancy, and then you will have less to lose when the baby gets here. I wish you the best of luck! You can do this! :)

Stephanie said...

Good for you!! :) And being overweight and currently pregnant, I totally understand. Despite knowing I should have lost more weight prior to getting pregnant, I wasn't motivated to do it. I kept telling myself, being overweight doesn't mean I can't be pregnant so I never really disciplined myself for the long term. Well, let me tell you, while I don't feel horrible being overweight - thank god for my German ancestry and big bones to carry all these lbs around! - I personally feel gross and not cute and thus not great about myself. Not to mention, I don't want to be the fat mom that can't do things with her kid(s). Once baby is here and I've given the ok, I fully intend of revamping the lifestyle to try and become a better me as well! Can't wait to follow your journey!! :)

Lindsey said...

I know you will do great! You have already done the hardest part...taking the first step. Good luck and I hope you keep us updated on your journey.

Lindsey said...

You will rock it out!! WW is such a great program, I joined WW after my freshman year of college and lost my freshman 30 and my mom lost 25lbs with WW and has kept it off for 20 years!

Katie @ Loves of Life said...

This makes me so happy! Because weight watchers WORKS. You do the work, you see the results. You just gotta mentally tell yourself you need a year. A year sounds long, but it's not. You will be a different person mentally in just a few short months, I SWEAR to you. Eek! If you need anything I'm here! My sister, too! Cannot wait to have another success story, because you will be a success! And girl? You know my theory on the losing weight between pregnancies thing. IT MAKES COMPLETE SENSE to lose it. If not? Can you imagine how you'd feel if you had double to lose? Ack. I am so glad I lost the weight. SO glad. This will be a better more happy pregnancy because of it! And now that I've had the taste of success, I WILL want that back after baby #2. You know? Again, so happy for you :) And let me know if you need anything!

dave and jenn said...

You can do it!

Joel and Cindy said...

Aww good for you!!!! Thanks for sharing with us - it always helps having accountability! You'll do awesome!! :)

Jordan said...

Good for you! WW is a great way to go! I lost the freshman 15...or 20/25 that way! Just stick with it. The first few weeks are the hardest (I just remember being SO hungry), but once you get used to it, it'll never be the same! And if you ever want to get out and walk or anything, let me know! I'm always up for a good walk (especially on these warm days we've had.. today excluded)!

bananas. said...

you've got this woman...i just know it!!! i can sense the determination in your post.

and lucky you, look at all the support you already have!

Holly said...

Congratulations! :D

Nikki said...

Good for you ems. You will rock this!

Lucky in Love said...

I am so proud of you!! I've been doing it online since I had Natalie but I've had a new spark since after the holidays. We can keep each other accountable!!! So excited for you! Wishing you lots of luck!

Jax said...

Way to go on making this year about YOU and taking steps to be healthier! You kick BUTT for taking time for yourself and doing this! I've listened to my friends with little ones talk about how hard it is to make time for themselves to be healthier and I don't know how any moms do it! You rock!

Carol {Everyday Delights} said...

Good for you!! You are going to do great, I know it! And good for you for putting yourself first - can't wait to hear about everything!