Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Eat what you love

Last weekend I fell of the wagon.
I was like a fat kid in a candy store.
At my WW meeting we talked about how important it is to not completely deprive yourself of your favorite foods.
Only eating "diet" food for the rest of eternity is just not acheiveable and pretty much setting yourself up for disaster when the diet comes to an end.
Restrict yourself so much that one day you just crack.
{A roller coaster story I know all too well} 
You need to find a good balance.
You need to find a way to incorporate your old ways with your new ways.
I decided to take these words to heart. 
So on Friday, I stopped at Chic-fil-a for lunch.
Now I didn't do too bad....I went with the grilled chicken sandwhich and only had a small fry.
Well apparently it acted like a gateway drug because after that I thought I'd also have a cookie.  Or five.
By the time dinner rolled around I had already used all my points for the day, so I figured I might as well live it up.
And live it up I did.
It somehow managed to roll into Saturday....which rolled into Sunday...and by the end of the weekend I felt like crap.
Partially because of the guilt, but mainly because of all the crap I had been eating.  I wasn't used to eating all that junk.
I was tired.  I was bloated.  I felt fat.  I cetainly didn't feel like a person who had celebrated losing 50 pounds just days before.
It was really a wake up call for me. 
That while I have come a long way from the girl I was 5 months ago, I still have a long way to go.
I still have a lot to learn about eating healthy and making it a permanent life change.
Sure I can stay on track and resist temptation most of the time.
That's pretty obvious by my success.
What I have to figure out is how to indulge the right way.
How to eat what I love and still stay on course.
Some days I'm already afraid for what happens after I reach my goal.
When I leave the comfort zone of being on a diet and have to enter the unknown of maintaining my weight loss.
It's honestly a place I've never been before.
Unchartered territory.
I seem to know how to do two things.
Gain weight.
And lose weight.
But I have no clue how to just maintain.
Quite frankly it scares me. 
I'm hoping with time I'll figure it out.
For now I'm just glad to be back on the wagon.
Back in the groove.
Fingers crossed my weekend binge doesn't bite me in the ass too bad come tomorrow....



Jess @ Wrangling Chaos said...

I have the opposite problem. I'm great at maintaining, but suck a losing. Too bad we can't switch brains for awhile

Samantha said...

50 pounds!!! That's awesome. One of my biggest struggles is finding the balance. I hear ya. Let me know if you find any tricks of the trade to help.

i'm jess said...

Don't beat yourself up over it, just take one day at a time. Every day is a new day! I know this may sound crazy (or not... who knows)but when I have a craving for example twizzlers, I will buy a pack and eat 2-3 and then throw the rest away so I CAN"T eat anymore and also I have come to find out if I don't buy it I can't eat it because TRUST if it's in my pantry and I am having a low moment I will destroy an entire pack of something! LOL! You are doing great girl... obvs 50 lbs! Amazing!

Ashley said...

I have the same problem. Maintaining is not easy for me. I always seem to creep back up. For me, I think the easiest thing will be for me to never be off of a "diet" during the week. On the weekend, I can indulge a little, but during the week I need to reign it in. Much easier said than done though!!

Katie @ Loves of Life said...

It's alright lady--it was a good lesson! The good news in maintaining is once your body really does get down to a place that is very ideal and healthy for your body--it will just stay there partially on it's own, but partially because by that point, it's so engrained in you and you HATE the ick-gross feel that comes with over-indulging. When I finally hit my great weight, I stopped weight watchers and maintained myself for like 8 weeks. I didn't count points--did my thing. Splurged a little. Did what I wanted. Stayed the same. I just think you're still too "in" it yet to go there too much yet, and thats okay :) Took me like 9 months or something, and my sister over a year. And holy cow! 50 pounds!! you are amazing!

Emily said...

This is why I support WW. Learning to eat those foods you used to, but in moderation and not all the time. Everyone has bad days, so you are not alone on that one.
I can say that no matter how much you weigh, how often you work out, or how much of a health nut you are.. you are going to fall off the wagon at some point. Sticking with the meetings after you reach your goal weight will really help you with staying on track. This is everything i've learned from watching my mom go through it. After years of doing WW it's just a part of life for her.
You are doing awesome, I love watching your updates :]

Nikki said...

Sometimes it takes a weekend like that to keep your body guessing and to keep yourself from going insane. You're doing so great and that one weekend won't ruin you. Congrats on your 50 pounds.

Carol {Everyday Delights} said...

50 pounds is amazing! what an accomplishment! don't beat yourself up too much, we all fall off the wagon at one time or another.

Sonya said...

OH MY!! I totally could have written this post pretty much word for word myself. I currently am sitting at a weight loss total of 60 pounds and still have about 20 to would have thought I should have it all figured out by now BUT nope. These seem to be harder than all the rest of the weight loss.

Hang in there, get back on track and don't beat yourself up for getting off a bit.