Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Mama's Intuition

When I imagined announcing my second pregnancy, I pictured it to be all rainbows and butterflies.
Happiness.
Excitement.
Congrats and best wishes all around.
A little boy, with a Big Brother book.
Instead, within an hour of sharing our news with the Instagram world, my world came crashing down.
36 hours after seeing our baby bouncing around, hearing a heartbeat, putting my mind at ease, I saw what no pregnant woman wants to see.
Bright red.
I immediately called to my husband that something was wrong.
I needed to call someone.
The on-call doctor did not seem overly concerned.
He tried to assure me that bleeding in early pregnancy can be "normal."
That we saw a strong heartbeat just the day before and that's a great sign
I'm trying to put my faith in that.
But I can't shake this bad vibe that something is not right.
I can't shake my gut feeling that there's nothing normal about this.
For now I feel like I'm in limbo until I can get more answers tomorrow. 
Praying that everything is just fine.
Hoping my mama's intuition is wrong.

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10 comments:

Jamie said...

I missed the Instagram announcement until after I read your post but I sincerely hope everything is just fine! You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers!

jennifer said...

I wish that just by saying "just relax, i'm sure it's fine, God's in control" etc etc etc, that you could be completely relaxed tonight... but i realize that you are going to be nervous no matter what :( So I will just say -- I am hoping so hard that your intuition is just plain WRONG and that baby is doing just fine in there! Hang tough mama! Know that there are a lot of us out here thinking about and praying for you guys

Murdock's mama said...

Praying for you & the baby. I cannot imagine what your going through, this must be the longest night of your life.

Katie @ Loves of Life said...

Oh sweet friend. I am praying this is nothing. Praying so hard. Hugs during this time. Email me if you need anything.

Ashley said...

Praying for you!!

Tiffany said...

Prayers!!!

Theresa said...

Oh praying! So scary... I hope you get good news soon that your sweet little one is healthy and growing away. With my first I had bleeding and I was sick at the thought of what it might mean. My little guy is now 15 months! Praying for peace & good news!

Molly said...

Oh no. I'll be praying for you. I hope everything is okay!

Molly B said...

What, wait, you're pregnant?? I didnt even know of this news! Congrats....please know that this is totally normal and to stay calm, all you need to do is stay calm and know that God always protects. Please keep me posted! Praying for you.

Caroline Alves said...

I know you will hear this a lot but I had ZERO bleeding with my first two and the same BRIGHT red blood when I was in first tri with the 3rd . I just knew that was the end, it was horrible. When I went in for the ultrasound I had already convinced myself it was over. It had to have been, there was too much blood. It was actually a
Hematoma. She is now 16 months old. There is hope, but I know it is hard to believe it.